Mood Swings

My Moods are taking me to a very familiar place ..

To a place where i can't hide , and i can't conrtol , anything at all !

i'm torn , but they can't see that ..

It's much , much , tougher than they'd or i'd ever think or imagin it woud be !

I'm happy now , the next minute i'm going through a rage journey ...

i'm not bipolar , i've looked it up , but according to some one , i'm a " Gimini " , or " gimini "

is my sign ..

And so it's perfectly normal to have mood swings , even more than the normal people get .

But It doesn't feel normal to me , nor perfect .. actually !

It Feels awful , more Awful than they feel about it ..

Because i could be with a loved one , and all of a sudden , i'm treating them like an enemy !

that's weird for me , as mch as it's weird for them ..

I Heard of a certain pills , that can help you get through that phase , but i'm not sure ,

i either trust , or want that !

i like things that are normal , but i guess i'm not normal after all , so how come i want what's normal ??!! ....... to be continued !