It's Been A While

There's a lot I wanna write , cause there's a lot I've been experiencing , and with every time I watch something , I witness it , I feel it , in a way different from anything else !

But every time I wanna write something I just find myself caught up doing something else , maybe it's nothing at all , but it's not writing , and now I wonder why , maybe I'm too scared to admit that I'm thinking of something , to the paper …
I'm growing up , unfortunately or fortunately , I am ..
It's a fact , I can't neither change , nor accept fully !
I can deny it though , and probably , there's where I am now !
I am growing up , and everything is exploding like ten times bigger and faster than it did about 5 years ago in my head .
Ya , not so long ago .. I was just a girl , just me , with no packages to hold , nothing to think about , other than , nothing !
Maybe I feel selfish talking about myself a lot , but maybe it's way for others to find their own ways and paths through me , and to find some help in whatever I'm saying or muttering , and maybe I'm just selfish !

I'm growing up , as scary as it seems and sounds , believe me it's way scarier .. !
Sometimes you know you're ganna end up ok , but all you need is that extra insurance from someone, anyone , that tells you letterly :- (( you WILL be OK )) ! ..

So my Tip of today ..
If there's no one that can tell you , you will be ok , or if they were just too late .. than just tell it to yourself , look in the mirror , and say it
:- ( you are in a pretty missed up shape right now , you are lost , you don't deny that , but guess what , you WILL be OK , you WILL be just ok .in god's willing .. )

:) )

!! I Am Simon

أكتب في وقت متأخر ..
ليس كثيرا . فرق بضع ساعات ليس إلا , عن يوم ميلادي !
الأمس , ( الآن سأسميه ) .. كان يوم ميلادي !
ليس لدي الكثير لقوله .. و أكاد لا يكون لدي أي شيء لأقوله مطلقا ..
غريب ؟!
نعم .. و لذا , سأضع هذه الكلمات , لتقولني كما أنا .. من فرقتي المفضلة ( Lifehouse ) و أسم الأغنية ( Simon )  .. فهي تقول تماما , وإن لم تكن أفضل مني , ما أريد  أن أقوله …..!

Simon – By Lifehouse << Check it OuT Here !!

Catch your breath
hit the wall
scream out loud
as you start to crawl
back in your cage
the only place
where they will
leave you alone
'

cause the weak will seek the weaker
until they've broken them
could you get it back again
Would it be the same

fulfillment to their lack of strength
At your expense
left you with no defense
they tore it down

and i have... Felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you,
I've felt the same

Locked inside
the only place
where you feel sheltered
where you feel safe
You lost yourself
in your search to find
something else
to hide behind

The fearful always preyed upon your confidence
Did they see the consequence
when they pushed you around
The arrogant build kingdoms
made of the different ones
Breaking them 'til they've become
just another crown

and i have... felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you
I've felt the same as you
I've felt the same

Refuse to feel,
Anything at all
refuse to slip,
Refuse to Fall
can't be weak,
Can't stand still
you watch your back,
'Cause no one will

you don't know why they had to go This far
traded your worth for these scars
for your only Company
don't believe the lies that theyve told to you
Not one word was true you're alright,

You're alright,
You're alright

and i have... felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you
I've felt the same

la da da da da
la da da da da
la da da da da
la da da da da
la da da da da
la da da da da
as you ive felt the same
la da da da da da da da da
la da da da da
la da da da da
da da
la da da da da do do do do
la da da da da do do do do

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إنهاآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآء .. (( و ما زلت لا أعلم لماذا سمــَّوا الأغنية بهذا الإسم .. و لكنني و كعادتي .. أحزر و أظن ..))!!

!!! Socially Deactivated

Why is it everytime i meet someone , they turn out to be a total psychopaths ?

not like " me psycho " , cause i know i am ..

But like really psycho .. with symptoms and everything !!!

They seem very nice at the begining ..

But just after a short , or somewhat long while , they beome something else ..

And their true sickness finally appear !

I Do something , very silly , and all of a sudden , they demand full attention ..

and they want to be treated as if i think of them the kings of the world !

well , i don't , if they do ,then fine , but i'm not ganna lie to any one .

They Try to create a problem outta nowhere !!!

Why ?

I don't know ! ..

And what surprises me even more .. is the fact that it happens suddenly , with no " Premonitions " ,

not what so ever , like someone comes to you while your in the bathroom , and smacks you

right in the face and leave .. , ( becarful next time you'r alone in the bathroom , and no , it never

happened to me :P .. ) .. just an example :P !

Am i really that horrible person , to have a normal social life ?

i'm not a " social butterfly " ..

But i'm not a " snail " as well ..

I like hanging out with people , but i really don't know what's wrong !

I'm really mad right now ..

But what else can i do .. but keep on hoping .. and hanging on !

Peace 2 all .. xoxo !

Before leaving my blog .. Check out this song , ( if ur in the mood ) .. hope u enjoy iT !

http://www.last.fm/music/Lifehouse/_/Hanging+by+a+Moment

Have A Great Night & day ..

Later Now ....... :) !